Epiphany. Both-And: The journey of motherhood and successful business.
I write about business. I write about women. I write about entrepreneurship and success. I write all this on my blog. But in my journal I write primarily about mothering. Mothering a fiery, emotional, amazing almost adolescent daughter. In my quiet moments my thoughts are consumed with mothering this child, and how every day my presence, my solidity my ability to create a holding space for her growth and her emotions, is the most important thing that I do.
Yet when I put my business hat on I write about business. I write about mindset. I write about marketing. I write about meaning. I write about authentic business creation. I write about women and their relationships to money.
Why don’t I write about women and their relationship to mothering in the context of successful business creation.?
Why did I never think about putting those two things together before?
Is there anything more authentic for a mother who is also a business women, than negotiating the journey of both-and?
It all just came to me while washing dishes, which I actually love to do with the warm water on my hands and the beautiful view out my window. I was washing dishes thinking about business and thinking about mothering while listening to Mary Black on Pandora really loudly and the light bulb went on.
The book that’s been hanging on the edges of my consciousness for 2 years now just became real. I haven’t been able to write it, though not for lack of attempts. Maybe because I was missing the fullness of the topic that needed to be spoken. Right now with the dishes drying in the drying rack, I feel like the book could write itself.
Both-And: the journey of mothering and business success – Vignettes, Stories, Authentic business success.
Chapters on the bipolar schizophrenic nature of holding a spot on earth for an emotional child who’s growing every moment and the requirements and desire of being a successful woman business owner wanting to make a meaningful impact on the world. The challenge and joy of holding those two things at the same time, sometimes within the same minute. Often within the same hour and without a doubt always within the same day. This is the book.
I imagine already the chapters, the headings that flow between business and mothering and the symbiosis of the two together. The lessons my daughter learns from my work and the lessons that I learn from her journey and my journey alongside her.
I was washing the dishes, my hands in the warm water, following my desire every moment today on the desire retreat. Each time my desire changed I followed it. I followed the bliss and found myself up to my elbows in warm water looking at the blue sky white snow mountains in the distance and I had an epiphany.